Bad Omen?

If I stim for the expected 10days.... my egg retrieval will be on Friday the 13th!! Is that a bad omen?? Although, I just realized that if I had my egg retrieval on Aug 12 as originally planned I would get my fert report on Friday the 13th! I think I rather have my egg retrieval on Friday the 13th! Who knows....maybe I'll stim 11 days and avoid the 13th all together :) And on the other hand, I hope I'm even continuing with my cycle (so nervous about the possibility of a cyst and cancellation) so I'll take Friday the 13th if that's what it is!!!

AF is here!

AF started this afternoon...but not full flow. I talked with the nurse and she said I should have one day of full flow, so should wait till cycle day 2 to go to suppression check. So, I will go in on Sunday! Hoping for no cysts and bloodwork suppressed!

If all looks good, I'll start stims on Monday! One day later than I thought, but I can handle that :)

Suppression check cancelled

So, AF still hasn't shown up. I surged on July 14th (confirmed with bloodwork).... so it should be coming right? I'm crampy too...I think it'll show up today or tomorrow. I hope!!!!

I was concerned about going to my suppression check if I won't even pass...what a waste of money and time. I pay for these local u/s and bloodwork out of pocket and it's pricey!!! So I called the nurses yesterday...no response until about early evening.
The nurses said DO NOT go to suppression check until AF has come. My nurse did not make this clear at all. I was glad know and to cancel my appt for today. She said keep waiting for AF and then get checked. I am hoping it comes today!! Then, I can get checked tomorrow and start stims as scheduled for Sunday. If not, I will just have to wait day by day. The first nurse I was talking to said they only start stims on Thurs-Sun..... so that means I'd have to wait till next Thursday if I don't start this Sunday. But then another nurse chimed in and corrected her....she said they'll let me start anyday... so just wait for AF and we'll get started. I was relieved to hear that cause just a couple days delay isn't a big deal but another 5 days definitely throws off our plans. Ughh! Cycling out of town is a big stress and so frustrating!!!

Feeling Better

I snapped out of my bad mood a couple of days ago... feeling much better. Lupron is treating me ok. I've taken it before since I've done the long lupron cycle 4 times before this!!! Usually minimal SE from lupron so that's good. AF is due today or tomorrow. I think I feel it coming!!! I hope it comes or it could delay things. But I don't see why it wouldn't come, we did confirm my LH surge with bloodwork so it should be on time.... unless I miraculously get pregnant naturally!!! The other hurdle is no cysts... still a little nervous about that too! NO delays, please!!

We've been working on planning our trip in the meantime. I booked the car today and used the CCRM discount with Enterprise and got a good discount. We're staying with friends for the first few days. They live in Fort Collins which is about an hour and a half (without traffic) to CCRM!! After thinking it over some more, we'll probably stay in a hotel for rest of our stay, there's some good deals with the CCRM rate and the drive just seems like too much everyday if we stayed in Fort Collins. I think my mom would feel more comfortable if we stay in a hotel (she'll be watching my son while I'm at appts). I feel like I'd be abandoning her for a few hours if I left her in Fort Collins without a car at some people's house she doesn't know. My mom and I are looking forward to spending some time together and doing some fun things in Colorado. The zoo sounds fun for my son. Anyone have any suggestions?

Bad mood

I wasn't in the best mood this weekend, it was my DH's birthday on Saturday, we had a big party at our house. My poor DH! I was really not excited about the party at all. I don't know if it's the lupron or what but I just couldn't seem to snap out of it. I was also dreading having certain guests at the party...especially our friends that recently had their second baby. By the time the guests arrived, I was in a better mood and was friendly and happy. I felt bad cause I wasn't as friendly as I'd normally be with our friends with the newborn. I didn't talk about the baby at all and avoided any interaction with the little one. How horrible is that?

I've also been worrying that at my suppression check they'll find a cyst. I know not all cysts cause a cancellation since I've had non-functional cysts in prior IVF cycles... but there's a girl on one of the internet threads who just got cancelled due to a cyst secreting E2... and she is soo bummed. That would be soo frustrating!! I'd have to tell my manager to put me back on the schedule once again! Ughh! I have found coverage for all my shifts at this point and it took a lot of effort and stress. I hope my plans stay in place! I just don't want to wait another month + anyway. I'm ready to get this overwith!!

Lupron!!!

Got the call late this afternoon.... I was nervous to get the call, all it is is a progesterone check!!! Geez! I feel the nervousness coming already! All the stim/follicle checks and bloodwork. All the reports- how many eggs? How many mature? How many fertilized? How are they growing??????etc! It's beginning!!! I always over worry and analyze every number,etc.

So my progesterone level is 11! Greater than 5 is what they're looking for- so 10 U lupron and dexamethasone start tonight! We're on our way!!!!!! We've made our flights, sent our $$$ to CCRM, most of my meds are here, found coverage for 3 of the 5 shifts for work, I think it's all falling into place!!

Sooo much money and effort on the line! This has got to work!!
I'm hopeful but so scared!

Thyroid Drama

I've been taking melatonin along with the other supplements Dr Schoolcraft recommends for egg quality (inositol and Coq10). I started these supplements in early June. The melatonin bottle has a warning about not taking it if you have a thyroid condition. I ignored the label and took it anyway. Well, my recent TSH is elevated at 3.57!! It was below 1.0 not too long ago. So I googled about melatonin and it looks like it can elevate TSH levels. It's often used for those with hyperthyroid. Well, it definitely worked. I think that's why my cycle was so messed up last month. My cycles are NEVER that long!! and usually pretty regular within a at least 5 days or so at most. Ughh!!!
So I emailed the nurses this weekend and they said they'll ask Dr Schoolcraft about it.

Today I was emailed this note:

"After some research, we are now advising any patient that is currently taking some form of thyroid medication to stop taking melatonin. If you are not currently taking thyroid supplementation then it is okay to continue on the melatonin supplement.

Thank you for bringing this to our attention, we truly have great
patients."

I had stopped taking it last week when I had that kidney scare and then started back up just one day until I got my TSH level back and googled around... The Dr managing my thyroid upped my dose from 75mcg to 88mcg. The nurses said it's ok that my thyroid is >3.0 as long as it's <3.0 for transfer which it should be by then.