Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Nine months!!

Today, our babies turned nine months. It's been way too long since I've updated!!!! Life is good, but super busy!! The twins are finally both sleeping thru the night in their own room....finally! They are also napping much better and more on a schedule now. I completely stopped nursing last month.. it's been a gradual weaning over the last 2 months or so. They aren't crawling yet... but I see it getting close! Gotta start baby proofing the house soon!! It will be interesting to see how life changes when they become mobile!!! I'm afraid I won't be getting out of the house as much with two mobile babies either... so I"m going to have to adjust my routines!! Probably lots more online grocery shopping and other shopping! Thank goodness for the internet, huh!?? Overall, life is good...busy and overwhelming at times, but soo good! And I'll add some pictures later. Or maybe start a new baby blog as a separate continuation of this blog. But maybe still blog here for topics like embryo donation below. I'd hate to upset anyone coming to my blog seeing pics of the babies. I hope my blog can give some help and inspiration to others if they come across it. I always found it helpful to find blogs with similar situations to mine and would read back from the start. Many of these blogs helped me decide to go to CCRM. I"m so thankful for that.

My friend, FLYGIRL, has a blog which I'm sure most of you know. She's donating her frosties to a wonderful family. What an amazing gift...... and I agree, can't think of a better gift you can give someone!! My husband and I are in a dilemma about what to do with our lone frostie left. If we had more than one... then we'd probably donate because we don't think we can manage 5+ kids. And I know many of you have TONS of frosties which would be impossible to use them all!! We can't handle twins again either! Since it is only one left we feel like we "could" handle one more kid! (it's crazy to even be in this dilemma after years of infertility!!). But when I look at our precious twins (2 of our 3 CCS normals) I think of our one left. We could donate him/her... but since she/he has no potential sibling... I feel bad just leaving him/her out....like he/she belongs with us. I often wonder if it is a boy or a girl. But knowing (if CCRM would tell us) would make it even harder to let he/she go. My husband keeps reminding me this embryo in the freezer is just 2 weeks away from a heartbeat. My heart aches to not give it life either by donation or to us. (not sure if we'd be able to donate just one CCS normal... I know CCRM has more strict criteria). We haven't decided what to do. And we could attempt an FET and it could not work.... but it's a high quality 5 day old CCS normal embryo... and I'm sure it has a VERY good chance. Thankfully, we don't have to decide just now. We have some time.