Happy Birthday!!

It's my Birthday today!! Today I was remembering my Birthday two years ago.... the day I received our CCS results!! What a special Birthday gift it was to find out we had 3/5 normal embryos. Two of those embryos are in their cribs napping right now!! Today I am thankful for these gifts.... the best Birthday gifts I could ask for. Gosh it's been forever since I've updated. The babies are now 14.5 months old! Their first Birthday party was so much fun... we had lots friends and family over to celebrate :) Layla has been walking since just after her first birthday. Alec is still not walking independently!! He has taken a few steps but still is not walking on his own completely. He uses the walker to get around. Here's a cute story...Layla steals the walker away from him (poor Alec!)... he'll cry since she took it and she'll see he's crying and pat him on the back to console him. He gets up and starts to use the walker again and she steals it away again. He cries again and then she stops to console him again. The cycle repeats itself. It's too funny! The twins are a lot of work. After having a singleton and now twins... I'd definitely say twins are more work and more exhaustion. But life is good. We really want to use all of our embryos so I guess it's better we got two out of the way at once anyway!! I noticed the blogger has new features and it looks like people actually do read or check my blog. Usually from ccrm journey or ivf flygirl's blog. I hope my blog is helpful to others and gives other's hope. Please don't hesitate to contact me if you ever have any questions about my cycle at CCRM or any IVF questions! It gives purpose to our IF struggle. Lately...I've had quite a few friends of friends contacting me for IF advice. IF is and will always be a part of me and I am more than happy to help anyone out.

Nine months!!

Today, our babies turned nine months. It's been way too long since I've updated!!!! Life is good, but super busy!! The twins are finally both sleeping thru the night in their own room....finally! They are also napping much better and more on a schedule now. I completely stopped nursing last month.. it's been a gradual weaning over the last 2 months or so. They aren't crawling yet... but I see it getting close! Gotta start baby proofing the house soon!! It will be interesting to see how life changes when they become mobile!!! I'm afraid I won't be getting out of the house as much with two mobile babies either... so I"m going to have to adjust my routines!! Probably lots more online grocery shopping and other shopping! Thank goodness for the internet, huh!?? Overall, life is good...busy and overwhelming at times, but soo good! And I'll add some pictures later. Or maybe start a new baby blog as a separate continuation of this blog. But maybe still blog here for topics like embryo donation below. I'd hate to upset anyone coming to my blog seeing pics of the babies. I hope my blog can give some help and inspiration to others if they come across it. I always found it helpful to find blogs with similar situations to mine and would read back from the start. Many of these blogs helped me decide to go to CCRM. I"m so thankful for that.

My friend, FLYGIRL, has a blog which I'm sure most of you know. She's donating her frosties to a wonderful family. What an amazing gift...... and I agree, can't think of a better gift you can give someone!! My husband and I are in a dilemma about what to do with our lone frostie left. If we had more than one... then we'd probably donate because we don't think we can manage 5+ kids. And I know many of you have TONS of frosties which would be impossible to use them all!! We can't handle twins again either! Since it is only one left we feel like we "could" handle one more kid! (it's crazy to even be in this dilemma after years of infertility!!). But when I look at our precious twins (2 of our 3 CCS normals) I think of our one left. We could donate him/her... but since she/he has no potential sibling... I feel bad just leaving him/her out....like he/she belongs with us. I often wonder if it is a boy or a girl. But knowing (if CCRM would tell us) would make it even harder to let he/she go. My husband keeps reminding me this embryo in the freezer is just 2 weeks away from a heartbeat. My heart aches to not give it life either by donation or to us. (not sure if we'd be able to donate just one CCS normal... I know CCRM has more strict criteria). We haven't decided what to do. And we could attempt an FET and it could not work.... but it's a high quality 5 day old CCS normal embryo... and I'm sure it has a VERY good chance. Thankfully, we don't have to decide just now. We have some time.