Regroup Update

I had my regroup today with Dr Schoolcraft. He does make me nervous at first...he's so quiet and dry. I do like him more in person cause you can see his body language. I liked him a lot in person, actually. He does warm up to you after a few minutes of talking.

I asked him how many should we transfer- he said most do two since it's just so much effort at this point but he said we could transfer one if we want. I asked if he'd recommend three (I wouldn't but just curious).. but he said no, only in older ladies he sometimes recommends 3 CCS normals.

Next, I asked which ones he'd recommend for transfer (although I think I know the answer). He says the embryologist decides this. We talked about the quality and he said he sees lots of pregnancies with the quality we have, of course a perfect AA embryos would be better but it doesn't mean it won't work with the ones we have. He sounded positive :)

Lastly, I asked about immune issues specifically NKs. He doesn't believe in this and said there's a large study that just came out that proves they are irrelevant. He said do not worry about the NKs and do not treat them. It's "hocus pocus". He says the Beer Clinic should be out of business and they're stealing our money. Ughh! We've wasted a lot of money on these immune treatments I guess. Although, I have to say- some of it is relevant such as APAs and any clotting issues which Dr Sch agreed.

I asked about our loss last summer of a 46xy. He thinks we lost it because it was slow frozen. He says slow frozen embryos have a higher chance of miscarriage. How sad...we lost a little boy snowbaby due to the way it was frozen. But that was the only technology available at the time (2006). Technology sure has improved in the last four years since we started this proccess! It's amazing!!!

Overall, he sounded positive for our chances for success with our little snowbabies :)

Looks like I'm going to surge soon, finally!! My test this morning was almost +. Hopefully I'll get a + tonight or tomorrow morning.... and we'll be on our way!! My guess transfer would be around Oct 25th since I'm about 2 weeks behind.

Cycle day 24

0.2! That's my progesterone level today. Again, I as not surprised since I have not seen an LH surge. UGhh. Another looooong cycle. Last cycle I surged on day 28, I can only hope I do this time too. I would be soo happy!

Next check is Monday. We will see where I'm at (also checking LH). If it doesn't look like I'll ovulate then they will induce a period. I asked about going into a natural FET, but my lining may not be so good since this is such a long cycle. But it's something we can ask Dr Sch about. I get to talk to him this Thursday, so I can ask more about my options then.

I'm at at least 2 weeks delayed at this point. If I'm lucky enough to ovulate on cycle day 28 then I'd be about 2 weeks delayed. Maybe my DH will get to come along afterall and that would be nice :)

Not so good...

My progesterone check was not so good. Level is 0.3. So no sign of ovulation. I pretty much knew that. I can only hope I'll ovulate on cycle day 28 like last month. I just hope I ovulate at all so I can move on. I'm sure my FET date is now at least a week later...and my guess it's probably two weeks later than originally scheduled at best.
Ughh. I know you can all relate. I just wish I could be on BCP, then this issue would have been solved. I did ask the nurse again if I would be able to be fit into the schedule, she said yes...they will find a spot for me no matter when it comes. They want me to go in on Tuesday to check again. These STAT progesterone checks are OOP and add up. What a waste of money. Maybe I'll ask on Monday if I could do a non-STAT check. Then it would be free thru my insurance. I hate throwing money down the drain. I've done enough of that this year!!

Cycle day 21

This morning I went in for my progesterone check. If it's >5 I can proceed with lupron.
I'm pretty confident it will not be >5. I don't think I've ovulated. At least that's what those stupid OPKs tell me. Maybe I missed my surge? I hope so. Last month I didn't get a surge until cycle day 28!!! I won't be surprised if my cycle is a mess this month since I just came out of a fresh cycle. So frustrating! I hear the calendar is booking up, which makes me nervous if my cycle is totally off. The nurse says once you're on the schedule, they'll squeeze you in somehow... I hope so.

I guess I'll hear back this afternoon to get an idea of what's going on...

Cycle day 17...

I've been OPKing these last few days since I am on cycle day 17 today. No sign of a surge yet. I think that means my FET will be at least a few days later than planned. Hopefully I'll get a surge soon and I won't be too off track. It's definitely not as stressful as planning a fresh cycle, so I am not stressed about it...yet!

My regroup appointment is set up for September 16th. I guess we'll discuss our CCS results and our transfer plans. I'm afraid to ask our % chance for success...cause I know Dr Schoolcraft tends to underestimate your chances and I don't want to be bummed out.

My other concern is immune issues. But I already know his answer on that..."it's hocus pocus". I may have the Beer Clinic treat me for immune issues just for peace of mind and a precaution, and I've already done the whole work up with them. We lost a normal embryo last summer and I just don't know why...all I know is that my natural killer cells elevated and I had no treatment for it. I do realize that not all normals take- But I don't want any regrets. This is it for us...

CCS results are in!!!!

Well, I did get a nice birthday surprise! Three of our five are normal!! Our abnormals are the two from day 6...the 3AB and the 4AB. My nurse thought these were our best ones. Bummer!! The normals are all of the days fives.... 5BA, 4BB, and 3BB. Nice to know that if we had not done CCS we probably would have transferred the two abnormals and got a big fat negative! Or a heartbreaking miscarriage. So thankful that CCS saved us from that happening.

I am hopeful and happy with our results. Of course I wanted more and the normal ones to be our best embryos. My guess is we'll transfer two since none of ours are perfect AAs. It's nice to have at least one extra in case there are issues with thawing and re-expanding... comforting to have a back up embie!

The next step is to talk with Dr Schoolcraft about our results. I will set up an appointment today. My progesterone check is on 9/11 to see if I'm ready for lupron (progesterone has to be >5). Then wait for AF and start the patches once AF shows up... I have a feeling this will all be later than the estimated dates though!

My Birthday Wish....

Today is my Birthday, and I'm sure you all know what I am wishing for! It would be great to get my CCS results today and get an amazing report. But I guess as long as I have a healthy baby in my arms at this time next year my wish will have come true.

It's a bummer that I am not really up for doing much this year for my birthday. I am just not in the mood. I told my husband not to plan anything, do not want to have a party of any sort. We will probably go out to dinner tonight since my in-laws are coming today to visit for four days from out of town. It's a bummer that IF robs you of good times, it steals good memories that I should have of today and even this past year. I look back on this year and it is not all that good. Two miscarriages another failed IVF cycle...so much heartache and pain. Been avoiding friends and parties, not my usual self. Taken less pictures of myself and family. I feel like it's been a year wasted of my life and even my son has suffered, which is so sad.

I hope and pray that this year my wish comes true and we can move on with our lives with our family complete. All the money, materials things do not matter.... I would be so happy and so content, couldn't want more in life than that.